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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Viewer's Discretion is ADVISED.

The following is adapted from a friend of mine.

Topic: Exploring Contemporary Issues

The issue of my discussion is teens and premarital sex- oral sex, which is otherwise known as blowjob. Now, more teenagers have resorted to oral sex in an attempt to avoid vaginal sex.

Background Information
Oral sex involves the use of one’s mouth and tongue to stimulate genetalia. It is usually done as foreplay of the intercourse, but can well be the climax of sexual intercourse. Ingestion of semen and vagina fluids is also part of oral sex, but the ingestion of such fluids without going through the process is not considered as oral sex. The pleasure of oral sex is not restricted to only the receiver, but also to the transmitter, as our mouth, tongue and lips are also well supplied with nerve endings. (GBU Free Documentation License, 2006, para.1-2)

In heterosexual relationships, oral sex can be viewed as a contraceptive method as it is impossible for one to get pregnant from it because the semen does not enter the vagina and therefore there is no way for the sperm to fertilize the egg. (GBU Free Documentation License, 2006, para.3)

Her View
Personally, I am not against teens practising oral sex. We must acknowledge that teenagers today mature at an earlier age and their sex drives are higher than those of previous generations. Since most of the teenagers want to retain virginity, the best way out for them to satisfy their sexual desires, and at the same time not risking a pregnancy, is through oral sex.
What good would it do to stop all the sexual activities of teenagers? It does not help with the situation of the increasing teenage pregnancy cases, but in a way, worsen it. The more we restrict them, the more they want to do it. Bear in mind that the rebel nature in every teen is not a good thing to be trifled with. It is impossible for us to rule out all forms of sexual activities in teenagers.

Sociological View
Oral sex is hard to accept by the society, especially among the older Asian generation. To many adults, oral sex is seen as an extremely intimate behaviour and they view it as a step further than vaginal sex and is carried out after sex itself has occurred in a normal relationship between a male and a female. (USA TODAY, 2006, para.9)

In the society, sexual activities should be left after marriage, or at least when one has turned into an adult. It seems morally wrong to practise sex at such tender age. The problem of premarital sex has now been diverted to a safer, but also seen as a much more undesirable way of having sex-orally. It is not acceptable among the older generations because it is not a “correct” way of having sex and is of no use in the world of reproduction. Such action is considered “morally wrong” and is discouraged by the society.

Medical View
There is a misconception among many people that one cannot contract HIV, a sexually transmitted disease, through oral sex. One can still contract the disease through oral sex, only that the risk is minimal. It is also proven through researches that oral sex is safer practised without the ejaculation in the mouth, as it can transmit HIV to the uninfected person doing the fellatio. (BBC News, 2001, para.2 & 15)

Theoretically, the receptive partner can risk being infected with HIV “because infected pre-ejaculate (“pre-cum”) fluid or semen can get into the mouth” and the insertive partner may also risk getting infected if an open wound in the penis comes into contact with the infected blood that comes out from an open sore or bleeding gums in the mouth of the receptive partner. (AVERT, 2005, para.1)

Conclusion
In conclusion, the community should learn to accept oral sex as a solution to satisfying the sexual desires in teenagers today. Restricting all forms of sexual activities may not be a solution to the increasing rates of unwanted pregnancies. Although oral sex still has its risks of sexually transmitted diseases, it is to the minimal. Talks regarding healthy oral sex life can be provided to the teenagers. It is also important to remind teens that oral sex should not be abused of, and one should be aware of the dangers of such abuse. Clear lines should be drawn as such are never to be crossed. If one is involved in a sexual relationship, it should be managed to be a balanced and healthy one, not one that is solely built on lust.

References:

AVERT (2005). Oral sex: Theoretical and documented risk of HIV transmission during oral-penile contact Retrieved May 30, 2006, from AVERT Website: http://www.avert.org/orlsx.htm

BBC News (2001). Oral sex HIV warning Retrieved May 30, 2006, from British Broadcasting Corporation Website:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/1422582.stm

GNU Free Documentation License (2006). Oral sex: From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia. Retrieved May 29, 2006, from Wikipedia Website: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oral_sex

Jayson. S (2005). Health and behaviour: Teens define sex in new ways Retrieved May 29, 2006, from USA TODAY Website:
http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2005-10-18-teens- sex_x.htm

-everything written here does not represent my stand-

blogged at 8:05 PM

Woke up at 6.45am today.
Went to school.
Start of IRP -.=

Had EL from 8am to 9am.
Our class combined with 4e3.
in AVA.

Sat with syl, jiahui, haoyou, drew, van n weijie.
Boring lesson.
Felt like sleeping
cuz i slept at 2am yesterday.

Then was POA lesson.
Stayed in the AVA room.

After recess had e.maths mock exam.
The hall was VERY WARM.
After doing the paper for 1 time,
i tried to tackle those question that i left blank
but gave up half-way
as it was too warm for me to concentrate.

Went to cwp after the paper.
Ate at mac with drew.
Jiahui, peifen, jinying, syl ate at MOS.
Shenghui, eddy, evan, weekiat (and somemore whom i cant remember) ate at pizza hut.

Laughed alot at MOS. haha.

Walked around in popular
and headed home after that.

MY F&N EXECUTION IS TML!!! arghh. hope nothing goes wrong. =)

blogged at 7:35 PM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

btw, everyone! that ***** 's surname is NG. haha

blogged at 11:33 PM

Dear blog,

went to school late today.
was supposed to report by 8am.
haha.
we still took our own sweet time to walk into the school.

Took the bus that was booked by the school to NYP.
Having a fan gan towards NYP.
Don't know why.

Reached NYP.
was sitting on one of the pathways.
It felt as though this is a Science Centre/ Discovery Centre visit. =.-
We cheered on who ever came in the entrance.
make them paiseh.
haha.

Went to LT (lecture theatre) at health science block.
It was small~.
Listened to Sakun (if i nvr remember wrongly) talk.
Felt that what NYP has to offer is also offered in some other polys.
=.-

Then it was break.
There was a small reception.
bbh ate alot~
haha.

It was the tour around campus after that.
Went to School of IT first.
Was rather small for that school.

Then headed to School of Health Science.
upon reaching,
there was a strong smell that resembles the hospital.

The 1st year 'dentist' for their course is like chio~
now a days the dentist all like old old one.
(no offence. haha)

Walked to School of Business.
Didn't actually go inside.

Headed to School of Engineering after that.
alot guys.

Our class was the last to leave NYP.
haha.
Greeted them with our signature greeting before we left.
haha.
"Thank you blah blah blah and have a nice day!"

Band was having their sectionals when i returned to school.
Investiture is in 3 weeks time? don't know.

Hearing the band play from inside the room and outside the room is different.
It sound seems nicer outside the room.

Went to coffeeshop for 'lunch' after band.
Was discussing where to go after that.
meiling thought of bowling.

speaking of bowling,
jiahui, drew, syl and me were discussing when to bowl earlier.
but didn't finalise.
haha.

After eating,
meiling, kok and me walked to adm.
took 969 to yishun.
we were still in school u.
except for meiling.

Sir left after eating.
Met guobin at yishun.

walked to SAFRA yishun.
bowled 2 games.
i won kok by 2! haha.

Then played pool.
the rule there states 'Nobody wearing school uniform(full or half), including those bearing their school name, is allowed to pool'.
but nobody cares. haha.

Played darts with kok after that.
first time playing sia.
haha.

Then took mercs cab to adm.
Went to the foodcourt.
They ate but i drank only.
it was 9pm then.

Took bus home after that.
eyes were looking at me -.=
There's still maths mock exam tml. =.-

i have to shorten my entry because of you =.-

signing off,
-JEL-

blogged at 10:32 PM

Monday, May 29, 2006

There are three ways in which we can categorise friendship.

The three different categories are friendship of reciprocity, receptivity and association.

Friendship of reciprocity is typically found between friends who had known each other for some time and this friendship is based on impartiality. This kind of friendship can be easily distinguished by the commitment and generosity that is contributed by the parties involved.

Another friendship that is being discussed is the friendship of receptivity. It is a friendship that is inproportionate as one is giving more and the other is receiving more. However, the unfairness is positive and important as each gains satisfaction and favourable outcomes from it. Usually, a difference in status is existent between the two person involved in this kind of friendship.

The last type of friendship that we are going to discuss about is the friendship of association, which is usually a brief and short-lived relationship between two. It is a good-natured relationship rather than a genuine friendship. This is often observed between classmates, colleagues, neighbours, etc. No commitment is being given nor received in this relationship. Although it is not a genuine friendship and no passion can be sensed, it is still a pleasant relationship to be in.

adapted from my *****.

blogged at 9:31 PM

Dear blog,

Had MT O'level paper 1 & 2 today.
1st paper started at 8.30am.
Did si han and bao zhang bao dao.

Some pupils did the zhong he tian kong in paper 2 before.
Thanks to Mr. Ren. Guess what?
i lost that asst. book.
DAMN.

Weiteck sat on my left during the exam.
During paper 2,
the examination venue was rather warm.
Mr Ravin placed a fan between wei teck and me.
The fan was blowing against weiteck as first,
but weiteck made it rotate.
Thanks!, but the fan stopped rotating suddenly! -.=
What's worst is that Mrs Tan shifted the fan away from my direction.
I was sweating, but not as bad as weiteck. haha.

Headed to the coffeeshop opp. our school after those papers.
ate chicken rice.
Peifen was as usual speaking louding,
but the moment mrs. lim-yap came and have her lunch,
peifen tuned her volume down.
haha.
RRP peifen? haha.

On my way home,
i saw nick.
Didn't say 'hi' to him.
Tts so unlike me.
Haven't seen him for a long time.
Nick's like 6 or 7 yrs old only btw.
He hasn't change much.

Now listening to 'unfaithful' and 'love me'.
Its nice.

its now 6.40pm

signing off,
-JEL-

This is a complicated world, ever since humans became part of this world.
Why must one pursue perfection? So that people would admire? or for that feeling of satisfaction? No one could claim that he/she is perfect.

As years go by, the more cures there are for illnesses, the more new viruses would appear. The more a country advance, the wider the gap would be between the rich and the poor. No doubt a country will always need to improve, but through this process, many lives would be harmed and even the environment would be harmed. We have got only 1 earth. Why must humans do all these to themselves? puzzled.

arghh. all crap above. haha.
just thought of crapping.
does not quite make sense to me after reading what i wrote.
but nvm.
haha.

blogged at 6:09 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Dear blog,

woke up at 10.30am.
so early.

Read the baozhangbaodao book.
So much things.
Slacked around in my house for the whole day
chatting with wendee.

Left with about 11 hrs to MT O'levels.
Must reach school by 7.30am.

REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR DICTS TML EVERYONE!

my entry is SO 'long'.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:25 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Dear blog,

woke up at 11.15am today.
went to vista point.
Bought ingredients for later.
Gonna try out my F&N execution. hehe.

Went to adm at 2.30pm.
Met kka.
Got the bao zhang bao dao book.
forgot to bring home mine. -.=

Went back home.
cooked from 5.30pm to 7.10pm.
including washing up.

Chilli Prawns

Steamed fish

Tom Yum (mixed seafood)

blogged at 8:31 PM

Friday, May 26, 2006

Dear blog,

read an article today.
it says that a person can be sued
because that person used names, insulted and defamed others.
blogging is a world of trap.
many have been sued by others.
hence, i'm careful of my words.

Left my house for school at 6.45am today.
pretty late.
Did not have silent reading today.
Ms cheah talked to the 4E5N students instead.

The topic was again on O'levels.
She gave us the statistics for MYE results.
We are having IRP for 7 days during the holidays.
boring.

Had PE.
Played a lame game of 'monkey'
with zong, yanhan, kat, peihoon and weiqi.

Maths lesson after that.
Mdm Chong was having her mood swings.

Got back report book after recess.
L1R5=17
L1R4=12
signed my dict after school.

Went home.
Met drew, kka and jh at 3.15pm at yishun control station.
Jh brought a children game along. -.=
so paiseh.

Drank bubble tea :)
Walked to SAFRA yishun.
Headed to cathay bowling.
Saw this new dart machine and a BALA friend.
haha.
Sat and chat around from like 3.30pm to 5pm

Actually wanted to play pool
but there was people there -.=
Walked back to north point.

Walked around north point and took the mrt and bus back home.

its now 8.25pm.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:04 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIFEN!

Dear blog,

was the last day for mt intensive.
4 more deadly days to the O's

Went for the health survey at 8am today.
all kinda of questions were asked.
stuffs like 'have you had sexual intercourse before?',
'oral sex?' 'anal sex?', 'mutual masturbation'
there's still loads more.
The survey booklet is like 30 pages thick.

SS was fucking boring again.

Went home straight after school.
Met kka, drew, evan, hy, eddy, jinying, sili, jiatian, peihoon, syl, weihao, zhao and xiukai at adm at 2.15pm.
Many were late. including me. hehe
syl was the lastest.

Headed over to sembawana and peifen and jiahui joined us.
Went down to Dohby Ghaut mrt station.
Was raining heavily.

Ran to the Cathay House.
Syl's shoe was ALL wet. haha.
Peifen's hair was dripping with water.
Jiahui's water imprint on her shirt was kinda awkward. haha.

Went up to the 5th storey.
Bought tickets for X-men 3 at 4.45pm.
total of 16 tickets -$126

Dried ourselves up in the toilet.
Shared a Jumbo popcorn meal and Doritos chips with drew and syl.
Waited for 4.45pm to come.

Went into the GRAND THEATRE.
Was really grand.
Even though we sat at the 4th row, it was too near to the screen.
in fact, its just nice.
at our eye level.
I like the BASS of the grand theatre!

The movie lasted for 2 hrs.
My Rating: 3 out of 5 bites.
Some parts was kinda boring.

Walked to Cathay cineleisure.
pure supporters of the cathay organisation.
haha.
Ate at the foodcourt.
Meal was chicken teriyaki don.
Very FULL.

The rest went home, leaving the click 5.
Walked around in kinokuniya and then back home
via mrt.

its now 10.33pm.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 10:20 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Dear blog,

Woke up at 6.30am. Forgot to set my alarm the night before.
Lucky for me, i woke up early. hehe.
Left my house at 7am, which is kinda LATE.
Walked slowly to school.

Went up to the hall after flag-raising.
Mr Wong jia boon gave us an O'level briefing. kinda boring.
Was for 1 period.
Followed by mother tongue intensive. Last 2nd day.
Did newspaper section today.

Then was F&N. slacked.
and recess followed by english.
Took back EL MYE paper 1 section A : 17/30
Returned back to mother tongue intensive after that for 2 periods.

Accompanied haoyou to the sch library.
He got some condemned books.
I borrowed 1 book from amanda. haha.

Took 912 to cwp. There was drew, dee, joy and haoyou.
Drew, dee, joy alighted at 888 plaza.
Haoyou accompanied me to wdls regional library.
Returned 2 books and then headed home.

Slept for 3.5 hrs.
Was very tired as i had a conference last night.

Went to visit doctor just now.
Had something.
The total cost was $32.
Getting more expensive.

signing off,
-JEL-

blogged at 9:20 PM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Dear blog,

Woke up at 6 am today. Took my own time to prepare for school. Left my house at 6.50am. I usually leave my house at around 6.30am.

Mother tongue intensive for the 4th day. 2 more days to go. :( time is running out fast. learnt a number of things today for cl. Had recess together with the sec 2s at 10.10am. There was very little ppl in the canteen. good. haha.

After recess, there was NE 'game'. lame game. Scored 'senior builder' for the first 2 times that i played. Scored 'expert builder' for the 3rd time.

Mother tongue intensive continues. Went for lunch at admiralty food court.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:22 PM

Dear blog,

Was woken up by a call from Jiahui at a weird time-12.30am. -.= Went back to sleep and woke up at 6am. My alarm didn't ring! arghh.

3rd day of mother tongue intensive today. Was rather an interesting lesson today. Miss You imitating Chen Shui Bian and stuffs. She's only like 20+? and she has a younger brother of our age-16 yrs old.

After school, there was a birthday bash. Weiteck's birthday. More than 30 pupils bashed him. haha.

Headed to Atmiralty Mac with kwee and kok. Ate hot fudge sundae and apple pie :) . Did shopping list for F&N. Deadline for submission. Went back to school at 2.30pm. Kok went for band.

Looked around the school for mdm aisah but to no avail. Hence, we looked for ms mayer chan to clarify some doubts. Ms chan was in the dance studio. psst, their dance instructor chio leh. hehe. Kwee and me were guessing what CCA was that.

Handed in our shopping list. Went back to class to complete our chinese compo till 5pm. The sky was suddenly looming with dark clouds -.=. gonna rain.

Went for band till 6pm. On the way there, we saw two male teachers alone in the gym. *ahems. haha. Mr Yap and Mr Shah were in the gym.

Mdm Dzarina came into the music room but don't think she saw kwee and me. haha.

Roy's sound is starting to grow towards junhao's sound. Is it a good thing or bad thing? you decide. haha. no offence.

After band, kwee and me asked ms chan what CCA was that just now. It's actually modern dance.

Went to cwp with kok. Sir came later. Ate at the horizon food court. Wasn't actually full. hehe. Bought tickets to DaVinci Code at 9pm. Sat at the 2nd row -.=. So near to the screen. Bought bubble tea and 'smuggled' it into the cinema hall. hehe. Though kok and me were in school uniform, they didn't check our i/c. haha.

The DaVinci Code was worth the watch. Personally, i give it a 4 out of 5 stars. Have to think quite alot while watching the movie. It was a 2.5 hrs movie. Didn't doze off even though i was sleepy. haha. Sophie's nose is nice.

It was 11.30 then when the movie ended. Walked down cwp through the carpark and then took a bus home.

It's now 12.50 am. yawns.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 12:32 AM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Dear blog,

Met drew and kka yesterday 10.30pm at 888. Then walked to jinying's house. Laughed till peng on the way cuz of what happened to andrew on friday night. *coughs. haha. We were the 1st few to reach jinying's house. It was later followed by Sili, Jiahui and then Zhaowei.

Drew, KKA, Jiahui and me played mahjong and then rested for a while. Ate maggie. Jinying cook! Then continued playing mahjong and later cards while the rest were watching movie. Played till 3a.m and i walked home cuz lazy to bring stuffs. Went home and steal some sleep. =) but 1 hr only. Then met up with them again. This time at Atmiralty Mac at 5a.m.

Eddy came. Most of us ate Big Breakfast Meal. Still not full after eating that =(. We were supposed to meet jiatian, yingliang and shenghui at 6am. Jiatian and yingliang was late. Shenghui's mom said that he is not coming.

Took the train down to city hall. Reached Kallang Statium at 8a.m i think. We join in halfway once again at around the 2nd km.

Peifen was DAMN HIGH! haha. We cheered for QUESTNET. haha but for fun. Don't even know what questnet is about. haha. Fun la. Towards the end, peifen was like tired already and she started to get quiet. hehe. For every TNP camera we see, we pose for them. haha.

Finally walked finish 10km! went to get our goodies bag. Then walked to KFC. The KFC there provides free flow of drinks! Its like HEAVEN when peifen saw KFC. haha. Ate for a long time then walked to take a bus to Tanah merah MRT station and MRT back to WDLS.

Laughed till PENG on MRT. Peifen laughed till she nearly cried. haha. JACK NEO! hehe.

Slept from 3pm till 8pm. Just nice for SI. haha. So tired.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:18 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Didn't watch Da Vinci Code just now. Grace was damn sick, so accompanied her to the doc instead. Went to the raffles clinic in cwp. The smell was so weird~. She got a really bad throat infection. Poor her. .haha. .

Now gonna prepare to go to jinying's house for a stay over. Gonna go to TNP big walk 2006 after that in the morning. hehe. All planned liao. .haha

blogged at 9:58 PM

Dear blog,

Slept at 3am or4am i forgot yesterday after talking on the phone with wendee. Woke up at 12.30pm today! haha. Today the funeral under my block chu bing. The trumpet was loud.

Completed my DM (f&n). Did it from 3pm to 6pm. 3 hours -.= We do so many things for F&N just for 1 pathetic grade in the O's. =.-

Grace is sick. *ahems* the reason? haha. Gonna watch the Da Vinci Code with her later. Meeting her at 6.45pm at cwp. i am still here blogging. gosh. haha. Its now 6.10pm.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 6:07 PM

Dear blog,

MT intensive into the 2nd day today. Miss You was good. Learnt many things. :) hope that my Chinese really can improve. hehe. nothing special happened today.

Met drew, kka, eddy, haoyou, evan, shenghui, jiajun and xiukai at cwp at 2.30pm. Watched 'Over The hedge' at 3.15 pm. Cathay CWP was packed with many patrons. Weihao and yingliang came and went off. -.= Saw boonchin. He was watching the same movie as me. My rating for the movie : 3/5 stars.

Went over to the basketball court at mandai tekong park to play bball. There was andrew, kaian, evan, haoyou, jiajun, xiukai and me. Guess what? a flock of birds flew pass us (i wasn't looking up) and i heard sounds that seems like rain. It was actually those of bird droppings! 1 kena my HAIR! argh. Haoyou and xiukai also kena. Actually, i planned to play till 6.30 and go downtown to meet huiying, anna, liyun, zhengfeng, yewtat, weiteck and somemore. But they called and said that they not going liao. -.= So, continued playing bball till like around 8pm went home.

Conferenced with jiahui, peifen, andrew, weiteck, kaian and wendy. haha.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 12:18 AM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Dear blog,

Start of CL intensive today. Under Yu Lao Shi. First time kena her. Rather good in my opinion of her. The moment she came in, she asked us how we want our intensive to be like. good right? then she only have 3 rules for us-

Don't talk when she is teaching
Don't stand up suddenly as she feels weird
Don't go toilet when she is explaining and teach. Go when there is a break.

She also told us of the expections of the lower sec classes of how they want their lessons to be like. She contridicting herself just now. I asked if she could explain in english and she said that if she explain in el, we will not learn anything. but moments later, she explained some things in el. -.=

For the second half of intensive today, she gave us a compo topic- Tears dropped as i was touched. (translated literally). She showed us some videos, songs, and 93.3fm de music diary. Nearly cried as i thought of my family cuz of certain matter. :(. She's certainly better than Mr Ren. cuz she can communicate more with us than ren.

After mt intensive, got back Poa paper. LAST PAPER!

Paper 1 : 19/30

Paper 2 : 60.5/70

Total : 80.5/100

Went to mac after that. Ate ice cream and went to buy my fav MEIJI CHOCOLATE! hehe.

signing off,

-JEL-

blogged at 4:53 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Dear blog,

Walked to school today. Went up to the hall for O'levels talk by Ms. Cheah during ussr. She's gonna meet all those parents of pupils who have got no pass in even a single subject this MYE personally.
--------------------------------------------------
Today's results:

Sci (chem) : 61/85, therefore is 71.8/100
hence, combined science= 76.8/100

Com. Humans (history) : SBQ=21/25 SEQ=10/25
hence, combined humans= 56/100

EL paper 1 section B : 17/30

Estimated L1R5 for mye is 15.
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Last chinese lesson with Mr. Ren today. Tml is the start of MT intensive. I'm in band 3 under Miss. You, i think? should be ba.

Waited to sleep just now but there was some FUCKING RENOVATIONS going on upstairs. Cant even do my FnN cuz it was really very noisy. So, ended up staring into space and doing nothing. When can the renovations end?!

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

'Do not assume that we are treating you like that'

blogged at 8:15 PM

-SO SICK-

Yeah
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason
I just(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason

I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first childI'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tearsSo done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

blogged at 8:10 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Dear blog,

slept at 3am and woke up at 11am. Still fell tired. Went down to buy lunch.

Met drew, kka, syl and jiahui at 12.30pm at cwp. Jiahui bet that she would not be late this time and if she is late, she would pay for our entrance fee. haha. Sylvia was LATE AGAIN. jiahui was also late. hehe. Took the train to chinese garden and headed to the complex.

there was not many people there. :). Jiahui didn't pay for the entrance fee but paid for the locker instead. nvm. don't bully her. drew, kka and me were gay-ing around. haha. drew and jiahui are still the same. never stopping, but its entertaining. hehe. got some chio ones over there. bathed at 5pm.

walked to a coffeshop near JGCC. On the way, sylvia's slipper broke! it was damn funny. Went to buy a CHEAP new pair of slippers as substitude. haha. Ate the $1.50 chicken rice. Saw alot of bala's friend. Then headed to mac at JGCC. Ate strawberry sundae.

Took a bus to jp. Rather crowded there. Saw colin or kero the couple working at cool station. should be kero ba. Walked around jp. Sylvia argued that the sweet talk at the entrance sells bubble tea. Btw, it sells only desserts. She argued as she saw many people drinking bubble tea. haha. The shop is actually at B1. hehe. Kka tried the blue coral there. Its with yogurt btw. haha. It was jiahui's virgin time drinking blue coral flavoured drink. Chatted outside jp sitting down. Then took 178 to wdls interchange. The trip was an hour long as the bus detoured around. -.=

Finally reached cwp at 9pm. Went to the pasar malam and then went to 'titanic' for a while. There are many freaking ants there. fuck. Jiahui was scared of that place. It is above the ground and there are no boundries e.g rails around it. that means, we could fall and die if we were to stand near the edge. Reached home at 10pm.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

=Whats friends?=

_Screw us? think again. Its the other around. think about it guys._

+avoiding and hiding brings you NO WHERE+

blogged at 11:04 PM

Dear blog,

ended our conference at 1.30am yesterday.

Saw another accident today morning between two motorcycles. Didn't stay on cuz it was going to be 7am then. Have been witnessing some road accidents lately. weird.

Got back 6 out of 9 results for MYE-
EL paper2 : 33/50
CL : 60/100
E.maths : 72.5/100
Sci(physic) : 81.8/100
FnN : 72/100
Com. humans (SS) : 25/50

still left with Poa, Chem and History. was rather not satisfied with my results as i didn't put in as much effort as for last year's exam. I am like rather slack for this mye.

According to Mr. Ren, today is his last lesson with CL band 2 pupils. MT intensive starts from 18/5/06. For 8 days. MT O'levels is on 29/5/06.

-How can you entrust your instrument to someone who is not even from the band? You are putting yourself and the instrument at risk. What if it gets stolen?. This is what i saw this morning. Someone not from band is carrying an instrument, walking around- Be responsible for your instrument

Can you fucking stop calling people names?! What gives you the right to call people names when others talk about you and you get mad about it? fuck.

Went for band for like 0.5 hours today. Returned my instrument. I JUST LOVE TO NOT TELL KOK SENG SOME STUFFS. hehe. They were reading a new piece. Listened to it before. Left at 5pm.

Met Drew, Kaian, Jiahui and Eddy at cwp at 6pm. Drink sweet talk. Met sylvia at adm mrt station. She was LATE! she came at around 7.15pm if i didn't remember wrongly. -.= We were supposed to meet her at cwp at 6pm. Headed down to Somerset just to buy sylvia's bubble tea. Walked to Cathay House and realised that there was no listing for 'VOICE' today. -.= btw, Cathay House is rather nice. Walked back to plaza Singapore. Guess what? only 4 movies are on screen today. Then we walked back to Cathay Cineleisure and watched 'VOICE' at 9.25pm. Jiahui actually buy a pack of rice and ate it during the movie. The movie was rather boring. Not what i expected. 2.5/5 stars rating for me.
The movie ended at 11pm. Jiahui was afraid that her mother would call her. haha. Drew could imitate her mother DAMN WELL! Took the mrt to wdls. Jiahui went home at sembawang. We went to 512 to have our supper. hehe. Ate 2 roti prata. Even helped sylvia 'cut' her roti prata cuz she was lazy to tear. -.= . Finished eating at 1 am. Walked home. police walked passed me but didn't do anything. was in the park at that time.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

The more you hide, the worst it gets. Are you trying to imply something?

-being straightforward-

blogged at 1:52 AM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Dear blog,

Woke up at 12pm today. :). finally watched FF7. hehe. chio la tifa :). wanted to watch south park but didn't -.= Stayed at home today. Did FnN from 5pm till now. So boring.

Now talking on the phone with CLIQUE FIVE. lol! so funny. planning to watch movie tml. haha.

Signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 9:26 PM

Dear blog,

Met andrew, kaian, eddy, evan, peiling, huiying, juanita and yokeshen 1.30pm at adm. Then went to sentosa via mrt and bus. Reached siloso beach at around 3pm. Played volleyball with the guys at first. Then the gals came after they changed. The gals wanted to play monkey instead. So, we went into the sea to play monkey. Then went back to shore cuz of some chinese nationals. haha. Actually wanted to play basketball, but ended up playing soccer instead. The sand was so rough that my skin on my leg nearly tore. Kaian's feet was bleeding. Then we had a wash and played volleyball instead. Kaian and Evan had to go off. Went to bathe after that. There was like so many people in the washroom. Went to eat at habourfront after bathing. Then took 963 back to wdls.

Yesterday's video:
http://www.filelodge.com/files/room13/313358/MOV00003.3gp
http://www.filelodge.com/files/room13/313358/MOV00002.3gp
http://www.filelodge.com/files/room13/313358/MOV00006.3gp
http://www.filelodge.com/files/room13/313358/qwe.3gp
http://www.filelodge.com/files/room13/313358/wer.3gp

blogged at 12:03 AM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Dear blog,

-Yesterday-

sili's birthday today!.16 years old already. psst! its the legal age! hehe. met jiatian, kka, shenghui, mj at breadtalk. then went to lot 1 to meet the rest of them. Sili, Jinying, Peifen, Jiahui, Peihoon, Juanita, Peiling, Drew, Zhao, Eddy and Haoyou. total of 16 peeps. Went into the same room at kbox, but the atmosphere at the beginning was like very weird. Sili wore all those stuffs that we gave her. -mini skirt! lol! 1st time wearing. hehe. Maybe y the atmosphere is weird is because that some didn't go to places like kbox before.haha.Towards the end is like only 1 song everyone high. -Di Yi Tian. The rest only peifen, sili, juanita and me high. most of the time is peifen ZI HIGH! haha. The rest of the guys were rather 'dead'. Had some Five Star Frog Splash! lol! The guys stack on kka and gals stack on sili. guys at disadvantage cuz sometimes will kena hit at there*. or there kena squash when ppl stack on top. hehe. total bill was like $300 plus. rather fun.

went to cwp after that. ate at foodcourt. I was so hungry by then. Ate ban mian and ice kachang. So full!. haha. After that went to pasar malam walk around and then went to the bridge to chat. andrew and jiahui was as usual bickering. haha. Then we went home.

Upload videos when i come back from sentosa. gonna go prepare for sentosa later liao.

Me, Sili and peifen. dancing
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
peifen.funny expression

Sili. cake

Peifen. zi high

Sili. Listening to hong wei's letter

Andrew. Confessions

Kaian and sili.

Kka and sili

Sili. Wearing clothes we gave her.

Peifen, Jinying, Jiatian

Jinying, Sili and peifen.

blogged at 12:48 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Btw, MJ WAS 'MOLESTED' BY A FOREIGNER AT BOAT QUAY! lol! he touched mj's butt!

blogged at 1:59 AM

dear blog,

woke up at 8am today. studied for poa till 9am and off to prepare for school. 1st paper was MT listening compre. it was okay. Then was POA paper 2. The questions are generally quite easy. :) . i redo qns 1 for 2 1/2 times. fuck! was rather troublesome doing the paper. FINALLY MYE IS OVER! hehe. what's next? MT O'LEVEL! on 29may2006. its fucking fast.

Went to have a hair cut cuz my hair was freaking thick. Then met drew, mj, van, peiling, juanita and mun at 4 at atmiralty mrt station. An announcement stating that the train heading to jurong east will be delayed by approximately 30mins due to some track problems. We were like going 'Heng ar'. cuz we are heading towards marina bay and not jurong. but guess what? a few mins later, there's another announcement! this time saying that the train towards marina bay will also be delayed! -.= . went into the train and sat on the floor. Was fucking hungry.waited some time before the train finally moved. Yokeshen came in at khatib mrt station. When approaching ang mo kio or bishan, the train suddenly slowed down. -.= its being delayed due to the same reason again. fuck. HUNGRY!. The train was moving damn slow that it feels like we are sight seeing in the zoo or some tourist attraction. You know how slow the old monorail in sentosa moves? thats the speed roughly. =.-

Finally got to bugis. hehe. Ate at LJS. FINALLY! haha. Then headed into bugis street to source for sili's present. Walked many rounds but to no avail. -.= its so hard finding her present. So this guy whose facial features look so fake and he had fucking thin legs. It was 1/3 of peiling's leg according to her. haha. It was around 9pm when we finally completed buying her presents. More than 3 hrs.

Jiahui came up with a name for the five of us-jiahui, sylvia, andrew, kaian and jel. -.= 'Clique 5'. lame -.=. cuz we always watch movies together recently? movies like when a stranger calls, black night and MI3. haha.

At 9pm, drew, van, mj, jiahui and me walked to clarke quay from bugis via city hall and boat quay. Peiling, Juanita, Mun and Yokeshen went home. Sight seeing trip for jiahui. haha. She doesn't even know where is padang! lol. So fun scaring her today! hehe. Sight seeing trip for guys! also got beethoven. hehe. know what i mean? if not nvm. haha!

There was this staircase leading from a construction site to clarke quay mrt station that we walked down. It was damn long! haha. and in a spiral shape. It's like never ending. Mingjun scared jiahui! lol! so funny! cuz the staircase was like so ulu. Then mj hid at 1 of the flight of staircase and when we were about to turned, mj scared her. Jiahui screamed! lol!.

Another was at the ICON. Walking behind jiahui down a flight of dark stairway to the ground floor, i scared her! As she screamed, juanita who was beside her, screamed too! lol.

On the way home, we were talking about some racist stuffs. hehe.

Tml going to KBOX. celebrate Sili's birthday. *hongwei*. hehe

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheared-

What is common about vibrators and soya beans?

Ans: Both are MEAT substitudes.

LOL!

blogged at 1:04 AM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtQgzwmH7xc
go watch! hehe. .

blogged at 5:09 PM

Dear blog,

Changed my blog song. Its a foreign song by the way. The lyrics are damn meaningful :)

had a nice sleep! have'nt have that for a very long time since the start of MYE. read through FnN yesterday night once and woke up at 7.15am to study. Went back to sleep at 8am till 9am :) . Then went to school. FnN paper started at 10.45am. Was a 2 hrs paper. Didn't section C till my hand is tired. So many things to write. I still have 1 LAST paper to GO! :) or 2 i should say. hehe. MT listening compre and POA paper 2. It ends at 2pm something i think? so fucking late. but i have to be in school at like 10am only? that means i can sleep more. :) hehe.

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you

blogged at 4:01 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Dear blog,

slept at 11pm yesterday. Didn't study much.

-Today-
woke up at 4 to study till 5.30. Manage to memorise most of sec 3 chem. Today's E.maths paper 2 was quite difficult. Didn't know how to tackle some questions. The paper was 2.5 hrs long. Do till i wanna sleep. It was so utterly boring. Chemistry was tough. Setter was Mrs Whelan. I didn't know how to do 7 questions in mcq. gosh. The rest of the mcq also not sure if i am correct.

Went to the coffeshop after my papers for lunch and then home. So tired for the day. Slept from 3 till 6pm just now. Lucky for me, i only have to reach school by 10.15. So, i can sleep till later. :)

signing off,
-JEL-

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:19 PM

Monday, May 08, 2006

Dear blog,

sadden these days.

-yesterday-
stayed at home to study for physics and revise maths. Studied from 3pm to 7pm but nth seems to get into my mind :'(. maybe i was bothered? ya i was.

continued studying from 8 to 10 and still, i cant memorise anything. Chatted on the phone with wendee. i couldn't fall asleep till 2am.

-today-
woke up at 4am just to study again. hopefully, this time, i can remember the things, but to no avail. :'( so, studied on my way to school. finally managed to memorise some :). Maths paper 1 was not that tough :). Physic paper was okay. I think that i am going to fail for my POA paper 1 :(. didn't know how to do many of the questions. arghh.

after all those papers, went to coffeeshop and then back to school till around 4pm. I seriously do not blaming you for feeling this way. neither am i angry with you. cause, i feel that way too. you know what i told you. hopefully, things will get better.
i was on the verge of crying if you can see.

went mugging with zhaowei at 5pm till 8pm.

signing off,
-JEL-

there are still somethings left unsaid.

can i say that blog is my best companion now? i think so. ever since we drift away, but i do seriously hope that we could return to past days.

-let my rants be unheard-

blogged at 8:40 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Dear blog,

-yesterday-
met drew, eddy, haoyou at 3pm at cwp. Then sylvia and jiahui came at 4pm. Bought tickets to MI3 at 4.40pm. The same group except for kka went watching movie again. haha -andrew, sylvia, jiahui and me. Went to swensens' to buy my ICED MOCHA with ice cream :).

the movie was overall worth us paying for it. hehe. jiahui fa hua chi! haha.

after the movie, we walked rounds around cwp cuz jiahui need to go home and we accompany her till 7.30pm. ate at foodcourt. haoyou went home first. reached home at 9 sth if i didn't remember wrongly.

-today-
woke up at 11.45 today. went online and drew asked me go study. met up with drew, kka and eddy at 3pm. actually wanted to study at mos burger but ended up at 888(kfc) instead. Juanita, weihao, weekiat, jiatian and evan met up and came to 888 to study with us. Shenghui came at a later time. then another group of ppl came. they left. oh ya. 1 point. everyone have attitudes. i mean EVERYONE.

then went to the badminton court near jinying's house. she came down to meet us. we 'hanged around' and one official from the polling station came to give us 20 BOTTLES OF WATER. thats like $10. Then we played zhong ji mi ma. those who kena must drink half a bottle of water. the game finally ended after a long time. juanita drank more than 2 bottles. haha.

walked home with drew and jiatian.

signing off,
-JEL-

blogged at 11:18 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

Dear blog,

should i continue doing that or should i leave it aside and think about it later?

woke up at 4 to study for today's exam- SS and HISTORY! wtf! 2 humanities paper together. i think that i can pass for SS but not for history! :'( studied for history since wednesday and today the paper was like 'SHIT! I FORGOT THE INFO!!!' haiz. what to do? nothing ba. cuz the paper is over already. no use worrying about it. hehe. zi wo an wei :).

did qns 2 for SS and qns 4 for HISTORY seq. Next paper is maths.

signing off,
-JEL-

blogged at 2:19 PM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Dear blog,

i am feeling quite stressed today. Causes? -peers and studies. i do think i need some advice but i do also think that i do not need any. Confused? ya, i am.

woke up early to study for history MYE. Studied for 1 hr. Went to school. 901 was late again. The people waiting for 901 in the interchange is really ALOT! i was lucky that i didn't miss the bus or i would be late for school. hehe. Studied history on my way to school also. Sat at the back of the class with zongrong today. All the teachers didn't say anything. hehe. Was rather happy of what Mr bruce said of me :) . hehe. Went to atimiralty after school to photocopy chap 10 of history. We are having history and social studies MYE tml. fucking many things to study.

random quote: Shyness and avoiding things gets you no where.

signing off
-JEL-

blogged at 4:43 PM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

-TUESDAY-

peiling's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEILING!. went to j8 after school with drew, mj, evan, pl, mun, ys and juanita. took neoprints cuz it was pl's bday. ages since i last stepped into a neoprint shop. Reached home and studied from 6.30 till 9 sth. was fucking boring.

-TODAY-
went to school. so tired. maths was combined class with 4-1. Their class and our class is like totally DIFFERENT. after school went to eat at atmiralty. went home and met zhaowei at 5.15pm. i actually reached home at 4.45. So, i was late. hehe. Went to take the big walk'06 forms. its on the 21st of may. Then headed to wdls library. studied maths, history and ss. then went to eat at mac for 15 mins and back to mug again. studied from 5.30 till 9. back to the old days of zhaowei and me studying together.

blogged at 9:54 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

My new sub-woofer! :)

Dear blog,

I was woken up by the loud rantings of PAP passing by my block. I thought that i could sleep longer. :'( Went to cwp and bought a sub-woofer with 2 speakers! had been yearning for a sub-woofer in my room. finally have it! :) . Jiahui called and after i bought my stuff, went home and prepared to go to peifen's house. We were meant to go there to study, but in the end, when i reached there, they were sort of not studying -.= . There was Peifen, Jiahui, Sili, Jinying, Juanita, Eddy, Kaian. Did poa and e.maths and i actually wanted to do FnN, but in the end, i introduced www.myheritage.com to them. haha. Its was so FUNNY! used it for like 40mins? I still looked like zhangziyi. Peifen kept looking like Oprah Winfrey(don't know how to spell). Jiahui kept looking like WuYi (1 ahma). LOL. Then was surfing youtube. By the way, KAIAN HAS A BLOG- www.nothingspecialactually.blogspot.com . Left her house at 6pm plus. Went to sunplaza with eddy and kaian for dinner. Saw toh there.

Signing off,
-JEL-

you can be that someone.

blogged at 9:23 PM

I WANNA CRY MY HEART OUT! for no reason. . .

Can someone help me out?

-Being Sentimental-

blogged at 12:31 AM